Life’s been pretty busy but also stale at the same time. It’s the same old routine, rinse and repeat, over and over.
I love routines but they can get quite dull after months of it. Do I blame the lockdowns and staying inside or is it me not wishing to do anything? At this point, I’m not sure. But I do know that I’m tired of it.
So this summer, I have decided to (safely) go out and do things. What sort of things? Pretty much just eat at food trucks and go for walks. Spend more time with my dad, be more intentional with my energy and be more present.
It’s exciting, right? I finally feel a spark of excitement after months of feeling anxious over life or nothing at all.
My first poetry book was published in March and it was both exhilarating and unnerving. I wrote it during such a painful period in my life and it was (and still is) extremely personal to me. But it was time to release it into the wild and let it go. When I have bad days, I read a few poems from it and know just how far I’ve come.
My second poetry book is set to be released next month. It was ready in April but I wasn’t ready to let it go. I tend to feel like I need to rush things but also hold them back at the same time. What a conundrum. But I’m ready now. This collection is a sequel (of sorts) to my first collection. Whereas my first book is dark and delves into one’s mental health and loneliness, this collection focuses on one’s light and resilience. Darkness and light. I wrote it during recovery threeish years ago and I am immensely proud of it.
It’s odd to publish my years-long journey from illness to recovery through poetry and let the world in on it. But I wouldn’t change a thing.
Lately, I’ve been focusing on skincare. More than I have in the past. Being more intentional with what I put on my face and with sunscreen. I must confess, for years, I never used sunscreen and ouch. So now I’m trying to rectify that with daily usage. I wish I could go out and wear a face full of makeup—I miss it so much. But I don’t see the point when I cover half my face up with a mask. I’m planning on posting more here again. I miss it.
Anyway, I’m alive. I hope you’re well. Thanks for looking.
A.