I have a tattoo on my wrist that I got a few days before the end of group therapy. It’s silly and probably stupid to anyone that doesn’t know me, didn’t see the hell I walked through during the program. I get it. Even I look at it and think, “if it didn’t carry so much weight, it’s probably a little silly.”
It doesn’t matter what people think of it. Like all of the tattoos I have and maybe for others that have tattoos too (though I’m not speaking for them), I don’t care what people think of my tattoos. In fact, most of the time, tattoos are so normalized (in my reality) that I’m shocked when I find out someone doesn’t have any tattoos. Or I’m taken aback when people stare or glare at me. (Yes, I’ve had someone actually turn around in their seat at a restaurant to glare at me. Priceless.)
I should explain quickly how group therapy was organized. There were twelve of us in our phase and we had therapy altogether for three out of the four groups. The last group we were split into two groups and had others from different phases join us. Confusing? I hope not.
The last group was a free for all; it was called Insight and we all just talked about what was going on in our heads, lives, emotions and feelings. Or sometimes we talked about nothing at all; the therapists hated when we did that. But movies are important too, right?